I feel so lazy. I like the busy lifestyle, well active lifestyle let’s just say that because I tend to hate the word busy. I like to be active. I really don’t get to relax over the years based on my active lifestyle, but it’s that same active lifestyle that fuels my ambitions in life. I get to experience more and makes me a better person.
But sometimes I tend to feel bitter towards myself when I am resting and consider it laziness. I know that sounds kind of silly because we all have to rest and doing the work and activities I do, it’s quite stressing. I carry on though even when feel nothing but bitter laziness, to come out on the other side super hyped to work on a new project or experience something new.
Do you feel bitter about not accomplishing more within your day or week?
We constantly try to hold onto to things of value, whether or not it is for the right or wrong reasons. It could be a loved one that passed, a drug addiction, a simple habit, a valuable item or just the need to do something that keeps on not getting done. So no only is it hard to say no, it’s also hard to say goodbye or hard to just let go. In my case its items and things I didn’t get a chance to do. Even though I went through the all the types previously listed such as letting go of a passed loved one, or an ex girlfriend, kicking certain habits, I find myself trapped in letting go items of value and things I never go to finish doing. I mean some of it I can just let go and move on and it won’t be a trouble or make that much of a difference, but it’s that need to say yes I can and will complete it that always tend to bother me.
So in a reversed angle, its like I can’t admit to myself and say no you can’t do it and just let it go and move on. I keep telling myself yes I can do it, and leave a space in my mind stocking up memory of doing certain things, and never attending to it. It’s a waste of space and thought.
The reason I wrote this post is mainly about my inability to read my magazine subscription on time before the next issue comes in the mail. It feel I am wasting my money even though I caught them on a deal ($10 for 2 yrs subscription of Complex Magazine and $10 for 1 yr subscription of Cosmopolitan Magazine), I really wanted to use them as my creative inspiration for my writing. They happen to write and publish things that feed my mind to think outside the box and top whatever they have published. But I tend to get caught up doing other things, which are mostly important, but I keep stocking up on the magazine and never getting to read them and holding up space. It’s crazy to me.
Another habit I tend to can’t kick is the holding onto items of value that I invested in that are outdated I guess, but the product which are usually equipment for my productions, that still works wonderfully but are in desperate need for an upgrade. I tend to keep them around even after obtaining the updated and newer version.
I need to step up and say NO and let them go.
Are you going through anything of what was mentioned? Drop me a comment and let me know what you think.
I can’t lie, half the time when I tell you I am plotting my movements to unleash within my city of New York, I feel like I am DIDDY. I also feel like Jay-Z and 50 Cent too but, I be on my DIDDY swag. I am just that natural business man who wants to bring entertain to New York City and promote the talents within. Though the talents of New York comes from all over the world, at the end of the day where are they at? and where are trying to make it big? right here in New York. I live a New York City Lifestyle, I live in the fast lane, I like my options, I love the mixture of culture, I love the grind. Though the grind may be super hard, I am down for the cause. I will never give up. But enough of just me, I really just want to promote people in the right way and help bring opportunities their way in which DIDDY (Sean Combs), Jay-Z (Shawn Carter) and 50 Cent (Curtis Jackson) does for New York City. Even though some of their dealing may bring some bad stigma with them, this world ain’t perfect. And trust me when I tell you, New York ain’t perfect, but still get up everyday and work hard through the struggle.
So when you see me trying to put things together and make some moves in New York City, I am definitely getting my DIDDY on. (You feel me, right?, Take That, Take That, Take That)
PS: Shout out to all my hard-working people in New York City, I got love for you too. As a matter of fact, much love to my hard-working people EVERYWHERE who are trying to make things happen in the world.
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