“If there is a question, then there must be an answer, even if it’s one you don’t like.”

So my mind has been drawn to the topic of relationship and having a girlfriend.  Could I manage one?  Do I need one?  What are the benefits?  Do you just have one to have one?

I bet some girls may pop the same questions.  What is a boyfriend?  Could they manage having one?  Do they need one?  What are the benefits?  Do you just have one to have one?

I am puzzled to this date on why I would need one for it’s just so random how in a field I use to know so much and so sure about, I have been distancing myself away from.  It’s just became such unfamiliar territory for me.  It’s like I have grown pass just a name and a title and don’t have the energy needed to sustain one how I use to.

I usually think of a relationship as something you have when you are deeply embedded into someone and sharing your world and love with them.  I always thought it was just that easy, just have communication, trust, love and be committed and it’s the key.  It’s like I know what it takes to love, and could love, can show love, but can I really truly love at this moment in time?

I feel I am loving something more…There is a taste in the air I haven’t tasted that keeps flying by me.  How do I focus on love?

My thoughts as I get older, just takes a lot of energy out of me constantly.  I don’t feel it replenished just right.  So I and left stranded on certain thoughts.  My thinking process has evolved to a peak that I still haven’t define as yet, in my opinion.

I think some deep self discovery is much-needed on my part.  I feel I been working at it, but not reaching anywhere closer to an answer.  I feel the more my career or creativity jumps and leaps, the less I feel for intimacy or love as you may say (thinking to myself, this can’t be right).  But when the roads may seem to be rocky, it’s like there is an opening that appears out of nowhere and changes me again.

Maybe I need to chill out or just maybe there is just a calling my ears in not tuned into.

Do you ever have weird thoughts and understandings of things you just can’t explain immediately?  When something goes good for you, what tends to go bad as a result of it?

Thanks for reading and thinking with me
Richardo

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