It’s the start of the epic move to change my life. Am I really ready I often question myself, but the answer seem to always varies. The answer I most often reply with is, what the hell am I doing and how am I going to do it? I have written and plotted points of interests and tactics over and over, and they just don’t seem to make sense as I revisit them. I get confused my action of how I am going to pull things off but just a week previous I had it all figured out, detail after detail, and from every which angle.
It kills me going back and forth, but I do enjoy the rush I get when my creative ideas spark and I get hyped and it help create a euphoria in my mind that everything is going to be alright. I pray for humble thoughts, and calm responses to other people actions, but no one really always me that space to just live and create what I see and being sketching day in day out. I have always known, that I must battle past my fears, as I feel there are some lingering or the unknown in which drowns out me producing the results I know I can deliver.
I guess it’s the lack of people who believe in me and actually go out of their way for some support that leaves my thinking I am in this for myself, when the benefits of my actions will help others 10 times as much as it will help himself. So as I try to figure out my puzzle of keeping it going, throughout this week I must think on micro actions to spark and steady routine on my creative happenings.
As write this, it seems like much gibberish to just say I am confused on whether I must go or stay at this point I am at. I need to just do it and think about it later, it’s just a risk I must take to see if it shall work.
Are you puzzled at your actions? Do you wish what you see in your mind was simply possible?
Thanks for reading
Richardo
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