I feel so lazy. I like the busy lifestyle, well active lifestyle let’s just say that because I tend to hate the word busy. I like to be active. I really don’t get to relax over the years based on my active lifestyle, but it’s that same active lifestyle that fuels my ambitions in life. I get to experience more and makes me a better person.
But sometimes I tend to feel bitter towards myself when I am resting and consider it laziness. I know that sounds kind of silly because we all have to rest and doing the work and activities I do, it’s quite stressing. I carry on though even when feel nothing but bitter laziness, to come out on the other side super hyped to work on a new project or experience something new.
Do you feel bitter about not accomplishing more within your day or week?
We constantly try to hold onto to things of value, whether or not it is for the right or wrong reasons. It could be a loved one that passed, a drug addiction, a simple habit, a valuable item or just the need to do something that keeps on not getting done. So no only is it hard to say no, it’s also hard to say goodbye or hard to just let go. In my case its items and things I didn’t get a chance to do. Even though I went through the all the types previously listed such as letting go of a passed loved one, or an ex girlfriend, kicking certain habits, I find myself trapped in letting go items of value and things I never go to finish doing. I mean some of it I can just let go and move on and it won’t be a trouble or make that much of a difference, but it’s that need to say yes I can and will complete it that always tend to bother me.
So in a reversed angle, its like I can’t admit to myself and say no you can’t do it and just let it go and move on. I keep telling myself yes I can do it, and leave a space in my mind stocking up memory of doing certain things, and never attending to it. It’s a waste of space and thought.
The reason I wrote this post is mainly about my inability to read my magazine subscription on time before the next issue comes in the mail. It feel I am wasting my money even though I caught them on a deal ($10 for 2 yrs subscription of Complex Magazine and $10 for 1 yr subscription of Cosmopolitan Magazine), I really wanted to use them as my creative inspiration for my writing. They happen to write and publish things that feed my mind to think outside the box and top whatever they have published. But I tend to get caught up doing other things, which are mostly important, but I keep stocking up on the magazine and never getting to read them and holding up space. It’s crazy to me.
Another habit I tend to can’t kick is the holding onto items of value that I invested in that are outdated I guess, but the product which are usually equipment for my productions, that still works wonderfully but are in desperate need for an upgrade. I tend to keep them around even after obtaining the updated and newer version.
I need to step up and say NO and let them go.
Are you going through anything of what was mentioned? Drop me a comment and let me know what you think.
I live my week by accomplishments within the week. Sometimes one major event can highlight the week and make it wonderful, or even a lots of mini successes makes the week worth going through. This week I haven’t been granted such win or wins.
I hate failure but have learned how accept it when it does come. You can’t always win and each failure I believe teaches you something about yourself. My weeks starts on Monday and ends on Sunday, in which I aim to accomplish major goals by Thursday and anything after Thursday is just an extra bonus.
After every week or by Saturday I evaluate my week and aim for better and greater results for the upcoming weeks. So if I left the week without a win, please believe I am aiming for 5 to a zillion wins the other weeks.
This week I have failed on couple goals, the major ones I kind of slightly worked on but I need to apply more pressure on my himself. I hate to lose, but watch out for my wins.
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