When someone usually says something to me in any sense of a compliment, I usually believe it is BS. Maybe I secretly have trust issues, or I haven’t gotten over my past, or just maybe I really just can’t believe anything people say to me has any value. I am not trying to say I am mean, but I give lots of compliments to others, but I expect nothing back from them. They usually take it to the head as they are the “ish” or something, but I usually can tell whether someone is lying or so.
This post came about due to my boss asking me to work some extra hours, and to be it’s not a big deal, as most of my bosses always wants me to work extra shifts or time frames for them (I don’t know, but I really think I do), but to me, I just like working period. I don’t like the feeling of just sitting on my ass not doing anything. I won’t be learning, I won’t be exercise, I pretty much won’t be living a healthy lifestyle.
Either way here are some of the things say to me that based on who they are I just don’t believe, “hey your photos are DOPE”, “You are super smart man, I wouldn’t even have thought of that”, “Oh my GOD, how did you do that?, you are so talented”. I find those generic even if that’s the personal natural and honest reaction or compliments, I guess I want something more. I feel the right person has not discovered who I really am and what I really have the potential to do.
Sorry for the tangent, but back to the boss. Just recently, like really recent (*smiles), my boss approached me after I had agreed to come in to work said to me, “Richardo,w hen you are here things gets done, and mostly better than expect or could have imagine, you are efficient.” as much as I think he was just being kind and that of a boss telling an employee to boost their morale to feel good about themselves, I actually felt good about those words. I actually really pride myself on how efficient and effective I am to certain things I do. Forget about all the results, but the progress of getting it down it what is worth more to me than anything else.
We can all run a race or take a test, but it’s how we got to the winning result that makes us a champion, for there are so many ways to cheat. Like I was saying before, I am very self-aware and if anything seem too generic or commonly said, I find it fake to me. Usually people give me compliments just to ask for favors or for free labor in return. I so hate that. I like to help others, but how about just being honest about your intentions first.
Either way, sorry for another ramble if so. I planned this post to be short, but then my fingers continued to beat the keyboard to death, then this extended post with born. 🙂
I wish everyone well, and hope you find acceptance and self-worth or people find the true you.
Thanks for reading
Richardo Wilson
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